31 October 2017
Today is Halloween, and I am dressing up as a writer. Hibernating as a writer. Preparing to be more of a writer than I have been for the past 2 years. It’s also the day before NaNoWriMo begins, and I am in the final prep stages for writing my next novel. This is the story that must be written. I believe it will help me in another stage of healing. There is a clear message in this story, and is one I hope to share with the world.
But first, I need to write my story. I need to write THE story. In order to do this, I will have to revisit everything: all of my notes, journals, documents, and the secrets contained within some of them; a gazillion emotions and feelings (sorry, anger, fear, doubt, hope, joy, happiness, relief, loneliness, loss, despair, shock, and so much more). I have a stock in tissue boxes because to write this story, I am going to need to feel everything all over. Remember that emotional roller coaster I spoke of earlier in the year? It’s here and bigger this time.
I need to write this story to take the next step. To continue moving on. I poured my soul into my poem, “Youth Lost,” and was able to walk away feeling a little bit lighter. I hope this novel will give me even more of that feeling of liberation.
Some of my future readers might understand where I’m coming from because they’ve been there before, but our stories are a little bit different. Mine is about isolation and losing the one thing you thought you’d never lose. The empowering message is how to overcome adversity.
I need to write this story for me.
Welcome to The Downfall. It is a work of fiction. Events, names, places, etc. are fictional. It is going to be an adventurous story that travels around the world.
Here’s a teaser before I go underground for NaNoWriMo. Our lives were COPY. PASTE.
T-minus 3 hours. I will begin writing for a short bit at the stroke of midnight tonight. For prep work finished I have:
- Blocked out time on my calendar, every day to write 1,667 words
- Created two separate writing spaces
- An exercise plan in place that will also help Duke
- My plot written
- My “Brunhilda”-my wine glass that fits an entire bottle; I’ll use it for water, along with several other super large cups. Alcohol is OFF THE TABLE! I will only enjoy a glass or two of wine, or a few beers during milestones. I CANNOT drink while I write this story
- My grocery list ready, to buy more veggies and fruit to have on hand; have small bags of popcorn, nuts, and other healthy snacks in the house
- Plans to have the phone in a different room during my writing blocks
I still need to:
- Finish character profiles
- Outline (something I don’t normally do)
- Finish compiling my NaNoWriMo music playlist; I will be using some of the music I’ve put into three different playlists since December
- Make sure I have a hefty supply of tea and honey on hand; I already have coffee, but will want tea in the evenings
- Be diligent with staying on a keep-healthy schedule…the best I can…sleep still eludes me, and my appetite died (again) in San Antonio
I will be writing, writing, writing. I also have some travels in between. I’m excited. Some of my planned travels will keep me away from my sanctuary, giving me some breathing room to write with clarity. I’ll post on this blog every so often, because it will be great to switch gears every so often.
50,000 words in 30 days. It can be done. It has to be done. It shall be done.
My thesis-turned-novel’s protagonist was Natalie. Meet Kiki. She is the new character in The Downfall. I can’t wait for these characters to begin living, breathing and taking over the spaces they live in. When it happens, I get to hit the auto-pilot button.
Happy Halloween! I hope everyone had a great, and safe, night.
Welcome to November-for writers, we know it as National Novel Writing Month.